Things I Have Learned About Myself

I think everyone has this list of things they just are for sure they know about themselves. How they act, how virtuous they are, how much people like them, etc. But during my time in college I have learned to realistically edit this list. SO I decided to create a list of things about myself (stuff I will readily admit and stuff I wish weren't true) . . .This is the most realistic list I can compile. Have fun and see how many we have in common:

• I am very indecisive. I change my views, morals and opinion every other day. Along with my favorite color and fashion style.
• I easily pick up traits from other people, even things about them that I really don't like.
• I have a middle ground opinion on every major debatable thing cause it is easier than having to explain myself.
• I change around every person I am around; I even tend to talk differently (tone and everything)
• I can't stick to anything!!! If it is too hard or failure is evident; I just plain and simple give up.
• I freaking love drama. Not because I like mess, but because I confident in the heat of a moment.
• Scary moments bring out the BEST in me. I am more calm during an accident than I am just driving normally.
• I suck at small talk. Usually my conversations with strangers doesn't get past, "How is your day?" "Good." "Good."
• I HATE BEING TOLD I AM WRONG!!! But if I see your point I will eventually correct myself, eventually.
• I can't hold a grudge against someone. 
• I know what is right but most times I still do what is wrong.
• I strive to please other people. I want to make sure you like me, even if it means going outside of myself.
• I don't like feel threatened in my territory. Its a dominant Leo thing.
• I have really BIG ideas; but I don't follow through on most of them.
• I am rudely sarcastic. I think its funny but sometimes it can come off very bitchy.
• I'm terrible with keeping in contact with people. Even people I truly care about.

     Well these are just a few things I have learned but I'm sure I could add to this list a million more things.

It Is All About YOU. . .Sometimes!!!

            So as many of you know I am the youngest of three girls and I also joined a sorority in 2010. Now I can't deny that I love being around all of my sisters (blood and paper), but sometimes I just need time to myself. I have learned over the past semester that its okay to get away to yourself sometimes. Having "ME time" has been a cliche saying and sometimes tossed around phrase that most people use in joking manner.Well I am here to let everyone know that there is nothing wrong with keeping to yourself. I can truly say this. . . (Back history time): Anyone who knows me can tell you I am not the social butterfly. I literally was called a mute in High School and the only thing they could put in my final testament was something about my appearance. -___- I didn't want friends in High School. I had a few close ones and that was enough. I got to college and not much changed; I met a few close friends and that is where I kept it at. . .for a little while. Then I really started hanging out with an old friend from High School. She was the poster child for extroverts. She knew everyone on campus and everyone knew her. Strangely I got tangled up in her group of friends, since I was her closest. I thought I made tons of friends. . .NOT! She left for a semester and all I ever got was, "Hey! (not even a name) So have you heard from Karyn*?" REALLY? What about me? So I decided to start hanging around my sorority sisters A LOT and by a lot I mean A LOT!!!! We started getting on each others nerves so bad, we would stop talking to each other for days. It then that I realized I needed to just get to myself.
       So here I am after growing up with 3 sisters. . .being around over 20 sorors. . .on Spring Break realizing that all I really want is a hot tub with a beach view, a glass of Amaretto Sour on the rocks and SILENCE! And you know what nothing is wrong with wanting to get some time to yourself. Sometimes it's okay to make a few days ALL ABOUT YOU!! (Unless you're just the epic social butterfly) I know for myself those times when I don't answer calls or texts (deliberately), when I sit in the room with you but won't talk; I am taking time out for myself. I am thinking about what I could improve on, how beautiful the world is around me and just how blessed I truly am.
     Its important no matter how busy you are to take time out just to look out the window for ten seconds, make yourself your favorite snack and watch your favorite movie, jam out to your entire iPod playlist. . . .HECK, start a blog. Do something for you and escape from everyone else. . .See how much you really know about yourself or how much you've really changed. As for me I haven't changed much, I've realized this personality has always been inside of me just expressed quietly or around different people differently. And I know this because I take time to practice Yoga meditation in the middle of the day. . .sometimes while YOU are talking to me. LOL! JK! But really. . . . -____- Stop complaining about how busy you are and just close your eyes and take a deep breath and clear your mind. . .listen to the sound of your breath (and analyze).